Life

I have a challenging situation to face but I find myself going on social media. Already 20 minutes wasted. Avoidance sent me offroad. Then procrastination invites me to focus on other things “to do”. They all seem to be urgent. Soon the day is over leaving me with the feeling that I wasted the necessary time for what’s important. At other times I get the feeling that I am wasting time when it might not be the case. Rushing from one thing to another, maybe feeling important because of feeling busy, I find it difficult to stop and play with my children, with my nephew and nieces. While eating with spouse or friend, I try to finish another email “not to waste time”. And prayer feels like wasted time as the “to do list” scrolls up while trying to be silent. Up to the point of feeling guilty of taking a holiday. Sometimes we invest in a relationship and, in some way, it comes to an end.

Was it wasted time? Is the water that slips through our hands necessarily wasted? Staying with our experiences of “wasted time” can be very revealing: not only of the sources of our frustration but also of the life-giving ones.